Day 8...Ready to go home

March 21, 2008
Weight: ???
Walk: About 1.75 miles, 32”42”
Location: Tampa, FL

It is my last morning in Florida so I thought that I’d better take advantage to getting outside. It was actually a bit cold because the sun was not all the way up and there is a steady breeze. A bit chilly, but I warmed right up after a few minutes. To mix things up a little today I decided to incorporate a stair workout into my walk. The convention center across the way has a set of 40 steps so I did 5 loops going up and down to make today’s walk a little more of a workout. I figure that if one of my goals is to loose weight that I need to “step it up” a bit.

For today’s walk I really didn’t have any particular theme, I just kind of let thoughts come to me and realized that I’m very ready to go home. I have had a productive week, but it has been long and I really miss my boys and my wife and want to get home to them. I am really glad that I had this time away because it did give me the necessary down time to continue to walk and to think about putting things in better perspective and to focus on my relationship to God and the ability to let things go. I can’t say that I have completely given up and turned my life over quite yet, but I really feel like I have the ability to and I am just taking one step at a time and trying to make the next right decision and I do have the faith that things will work out as they are supposed to.

I am torn in understanding the difference between setting goals and trying to achieve them and just letting to and following God’s will and going where it takes me. If I set goals and set a plan to achieve them is that performing my will? Or is that how God wants me to approach my life and he will intervene when necessary? This is something that kind of confuses me and is a good topic to discuss at a meeting or with my sponsor because I feel that I have conflicting thoughts, but maybe they are in harmony? I guess this is something to continue to ponder and to discuss. The beauty is that I don’t have to figure it all out, but I do need to take the right action. Actually, I think I may have just answered my own question. Interesting…well it’s back north I go and I just can’t wait to see feel my boys run into my arms! It’s the best feeling in the world and its just a few hours away!