Day 17...Zoo day

March 30, 2008
Weight: 242
Walk: About 1 mile, 25’00”
Location: Zoo

Today I decided that sometimes I’m going to have to be creative about getting my walk in and sometimes I won’t be alone and just be able to reflect and I’m ok with this…actually I think it makes it a more positive experience. So today I was still drained from an exhausting day yesterday and also anxious about reviewing my inventory with my sponsor.

I ended up sleeping in a bit before spending time with the family and the paper before heading out for my meeting. Unfortunately, my sponsor was ill and had to cancel out meeting today. I am, of course, disappointed because I had prepared myself to do this today, but then realized that the quest I’m on has no time frame and I just need to be patient and it will be done when the time is right. No rush.

Still to drained to get on the treadmill, I decided to take my boys to the zoo and walk around the loop with them and check out the animals. I have always enjoyed zoos and it is something that I have done with my boys ever since they were born. I’m still not sure how I feel about the “idea” of zoos, and decided to think about this a little bit as I walked. I looked at the animals and wondered what they were thinking (yes, I’m still insane!). I mean, what can be going through a tigers mind as he/she sits in an enclosure in an American city. I guess they have been raised in this environment and it is all they know, but there must be some instincts that complicate things a bit.

Since I’m learning to ask for help and not only rely on myself, I asked my kids what they thought the tiger was thinking about and one said he’s thinking about doughnuts and the other said he’s thinking about a wife because he wants one. The lesson here? When you ask for help, know who you are asking!

I left the zoo feeling pretty good having spent some nice time with the kids and not having spent any time dwelling on my issues, but rather focusing on them and enjoying the zoo and our time together. This, is a definite step in the right direction.